I’m a nerd at heart and play lots of video games, binge a lot of TV shows, and am also a writer and artist! I haven’t been writing lately, sadly, but I want to finish a novel I’ve been working on for years. While I can draw, I prefer web-design due to the fact I’m a perfectionist and being able to create layouts to the pixel is very satisfying.
I was diagnosed with BPD in 2016 while active duty in the Marine Corps, stationed in Iwakuni, Japan. This was a large turning point in my life and the start of a continuing healing journey.
Borderline personality disorder is a mental health condition that affects the way people feel about themselves and others, making it hard to function in everyday life.
– Mayo Clinic
While in the Marine Corps, I served a total of 4 years as a Heavy Equipment Mechanic and was honorably discharged as a Corporal. I enlisted for the sole reason to be as far away from my family as I could, and I knew the military would accomplish that for me. I spent my first two years stationed in Iwakuni, Japan then completed my service in Camp Pendleton, California.
I met my now husband while in my last platoon in 7th ESB. I was a Corporal while he a Lance Corporal. I was also selling access to my Snapchat during the last year of active duty and even had one of my Sergeant’s on it. Yes- I absolutely was a barracks bunny while stationed in Japan. However, I learned later that I was using risky sex as a way to self harm.
I started sex work mostly as a way to learn how to love my body but also in hopes of teaching me how to set and enforce boundaries. While I still struggle with being a people pleasurer, sex work taught me more than I could ever expect. Since I was raised by bible thumpers- I was taught to fear sex as it was painful and not even for my pleasure and to be ashamed by my sensuality. No one in my family bothered to teach me how to take care of myself either, from a healthy diet, brushing my teeth, or how to clean myself. I learned all of this on my own after leaving the bubble my family kept me in.